Rss Feed

  1. a deep story :')

    Tuesday, August 2, 2011

    this is such a deep story. Which is almost make me cry! Enjoy :)

    Boy: I broke up with her.
    His Best Friend: What happened?
    Boy: She’s just too much for me.
    His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?
    Boy: Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..
    His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..
    Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!
    His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..
    Boy: But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!
    His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..
    Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her so she wouldn’t bitch about it.
    His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..
    Boy: Well, she..
    His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?
    Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?
    His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened.

    Posted by VSO ♥ at 5:08 AM | 0 comments |

  2. My Immortal - EVANESCENCE

    Sunday, July 10, 2011

    I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears
    And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
    Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone

    These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
    There's just too much that time cannot erase

    When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
    When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
    And I held your hand through all of these years
    But you still have all of me

    You used to captivate me by your resonating light
    Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
    Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
    Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

    These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
    There's just too much that time cannot erase

    When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
    When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
    And I held your hand through all of these years
    But you still have all of me

    I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
    But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along

    When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
    When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
    And I held your hand through all of these years
    But you still have all of me, me, me

    Posted by VSO ♥ at 7:43 AM | Labels: , , , | 0 comments |

  3. Flashbacks!

    Thursday, June 30, 2011

    HI ! I'm here again :) How's life?

    Umm. Suddenly I miss my cousins. They both are cute ones. I
    went to their place about 2 years ago the last time. Singapore would always be the best place to go. Cause we
    won't need any tour guide, won't worry about the transportation fee and others cause my uncle would bring us to any place we want to go. :)
    What I miss the most is this!

    We ate this BBQ+Steamboat at the Marina Bay. It was truly yummy! It costs $12 for adult *if I'm not mistaken. Hmm. The squid and meat and shrimp and whatever there were delicious. You should try them. :) I can get this kind of BBQ+steamboat at Medan too. SEOUL GARDEN of course! HAHA. But it costs a lot, about IDR 100,000++.

    Well. I miss this moment :)

    I forgot where this place is. How Stupid I am. HAHA. Feeling hungry ? :D

    Where do you this is? Hmm. There's water. Beach? Ups. NO! This is at Vivo City. On the highest floor of this mall, you'll find this place. It looks like beach actually. But without sands. HAHA. Oya. There's me and my sister . HIHI :D Even I can't see my face at all, I love this picture so much :)

    Oh well, enough for today. See you ! :)

    ♥VSO


    Posted by VSO ♥ at 4:28 AM | Labels: , , | 0 comments |

  4. Empty

    Tuesday, June 28, 2011


    Holla! :) how are you doing guys?

    Today.. I don't have much thing to write down here. I used my free-time to have daydreaming. Thinking about my past stuffs, thinking about how happy I was, when I met him the first time at the class, the first time he looked at me, the first time he talked to me, the first smile he showed me, the first time we played a rubber, the first time he added my Facebook, MSN, and YM, the first time I sent a message to his Facebook, the first time we chatted on MSN, the first time he
    confided his problem about his ex to me, the first time he sent me message to my number late at night, the first time he wrote 'ILU' on the chat, the moment when he asked me to be his girl, the first time he called me 'honey' and so much more. Those things made me feel so happy. I realize about how lucky I am of having such person like him. No one knows how happy I am. Well now I look like a little girl who just get a new Barbie doll. HAHA. Pathethic, I know.

    Hmm. I found this picture, I browsed it a few weeks ago from internet. It's adorable and cute.

    What is that? Well it's an embryo as what you see. This embryo was just 20week when scanned. And he's a baby boy! Well maybe now he's about a year *I think. He gave his thumb-up sign, just like letting his mom(Marie Boswell) know that he was okay there inside the womb. He might be a cute and adorable baby boy of course. :) You can find the complete information here (just click it)

    Okay enough for today. See yyouuu!!

    ♥ VSO

    Posted by VSO ♥ at 4:49 AM | Labels: , , , , , | 0 comments |

  5. I'm so sorry!

    Sunday, June 26, 2011

    Gahh! Sorry for the absence. I got some problems and now I decide to update again and more. Well guys, you have to know that the reason I post my stuffs or problems or anything else here is because I need to share those things. I have no one to share all my shits. And I know no one can understand what I feel. All I can do is just talking to my computer monitor and chat to my loudspeaker (?) HAHA. Joking. One more, I realize that human is a social being. And I can't face all my life's stuffs alone. I just need to express my thoughts. That's all. :)
    Okay, we move into another topic. Yesterday, I went to beach with some special person. :) Yes I went there with 'him' and his family. :D Well I was so nervous actually. I did meet his parents before, some times. But still, I felt nervous. HAHA. And yesterday I met his sister for the first time. She's ........... Adorable :) Hmm. A great trip actually, BUT I didn't bring my sweetie camera. Mom brought it to Penang last week. Oh yea, mom went there about a week ago to have medical check up and she had thyroid surgery. Sound creepy. I miss her so much and maybe she will come back this Wednesday, wish she's okay. :) Well back to the beach! So bad I didn't take any photos. But they did bring the camera. They took a lot of picture (I think). And I was captured in some photos too. I don't think I looked good there. HAHA. I felt so shameful actually. :D
    Hmm. On the way home, I found my panda(him, well I love to call him PANDA) slept along the way home. He looked cute, even when he fell asleep. HAHA. I saw his sleepy expression, and I realized he looked like a little boy. :D:D I really wanted to take pictures of him that time.
    Well, we're having holiday right now, until the next 2 weeks. Gonna miss him so much, because I can only meet him once a week every holiday. :( Now also, I'm missing him. But so bad, he's feeling mad to me right now. Pity me. Wish everything will be okay. I you Mr. Panda
    Time's up! I typed too much shits I think. HAHA. See you
    Ciao!

    VSO

    Posted by VSO ♥ at 7:32 PM | Labels: , , | 0 comments |

  6. Feminine Pink

    Sunday, June 12, 2011

    Feminine Pink

    TopShop petticoat dress
    $150 - topshop.com

    Roxy t strap shoes
    $36 - endless.com

    Larkspur Hawk face jewelry
    $850 - barneys.com

    H m jewelry
    5.99 GBP - hm.com

    Pink hair accessory
    $12 - topshop.com

    Dior J'adore
    $98 - bloomingdales.com

    Posted by VSO ♥ at 10:22 PM | Labels: | 0 comments |

  7. Simple Cream

    Friday, June 10, 2011

    Simple Cream

    Levi s vintage top
    45 EUR - conleys.de

    Topshop shoes
    $66 - topshop.com

    Hermes canvas bag
    $720 - usa.hermes.com

    RUKA floral hair accessory
    10,500 JPY - nuan.gr.jp

    Lips In On The Town
    $16 - topshop.com

    Posted by VSO ♥ at 12:12 AM | Labels: | 0 comments |

  8. It's Friday !

    Friday, June 3, 2011

    Hi everyone! It's FRIDAY FRIDAY *the song of Rebecca Black(Friday) which is cute :). So how's your day guys?
    I came to school this morning to have my remedial test. And tomorrow would be the last day of school. Because I'm having holiday from the next day until 22nd of June when I have to take my report and SEE if I pass this grade. HAHA. Well thinking about holiday now is really great. But I would get bored after holiday. Everyone feel it too *I guest. :D
    Um .. I went to watch movie, Scream 4, last night. A great movie actually. But I'm just too coward to see the 'killing scenes'. Using kind of knife or whatever which is damn sharp, stabbing people one by one. Blood is everywhere, dying people, ahaa! It's damn scary. I know it was just a movie. Fake blood, fake dying people, fake knife and whatever. But it seems like watching them cutting a chicken or turkey or other kind of 'alive food'. Oh! Whatever. I'm a real stupid coward girl, I know *Shy. :D .And actually I prefer to watch kind of 'horror' movie where I can see the stupid ghosts flying and pulling human down the stairs *well now I remember the movie paranormal activity 2. HAHA. Ew. To be honest, watching horror movie is also make me scared . Every time, after finish watching kind of sadistic movie, when I walk out the theater, my feet is just like shaking softly and it's almost numb! Which means I DO really scared. HAHA . Um Well. Last night, is a great night. Super happy! :D:D
    Okay, I think I had type so much, so see you!

    VSO♥

    Posted by VSO ♥ at 3:30 AM | Labels: , | 0 comments |

  9. Quotes♥

    Wednesday, June 1, 2011

    I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books I want to read, and all the friends I want to see.
    John Burroughs

    I do not regret one moment of my life.
    Lillie Langtry

    Life is never easy for those who dream.
    Robert James Waller

    Wanna read more? You can click THIS. I love to read some quotes from here. :)

    Oh ya. Do you have any questions to ask me? You can formspring me, by clicking THIS. Feel free to ask :)

    VSO♥

    Posted by VSO ♥ at 9:31 AM | Labels: , , | 0 comments |

  10. 안녕하세요 ! (an-niyong-ha-say-yo) -> Korean and it means HI ! :) Today is 1st June. New month new spirit new posting new changes(my blog view). HAHA. So what have you done today? It has to be something good to start,right? :)
    As you see, I changed my blog's view. I think simple is better. I get bored by using that template before. It's weird, I get bored so fast. I just changed that template about a couple weeks ago. Uh Whatever! So what do you think guys? Which one is better? Old or New one? I hope you like this new view. :) I don't know if you get bored to that old template too or not. HAHA
    Hmm. I've done my Math's remedial test and I have 2 more subjects left, later, on Friday and Sunday. I wish I could pass it faster and of course I don't wanna get bad score for those. Wish me luck so I can pass this grade to the next final grade of high school. I have so many plans to do. Well actually I can't wait to buy(*shopping) my school's thingy. YES! :)) Actually I saw a Bag yesterday, at a sport store, which *I think* can be used as school bag. It's freaking awesome! That type of bag is actually exists since years ago. Because I saw it so often at stores. But, now! I just realized it's really awesome. HAHA. It's Adidas :)
    Alright. enough for today. 안녕 ! (an-niyong) -> means 'BYE' too . :)

    VSO♥

    Posted by VSO ♥ at 8:43 AM | Labels: , | 0 comments |

  11. It's Late

    Tuesday, May 31, 2011

    hello readers! Sorry for disappearing again. :D I told you before I was having such final examinations at school. 6 subjects, but I passed 3 subjects only :( pity me. Those 3 subjects which I hate the most! Math, Physics, and Chemistry of course. Fiuh. So I have to join the remedial test. Gahh!
    Now it's late at night (for me, ya it's late), 10:04 my computer's time. I hate having much problems before going to sleep. Ya I mean, can we straighten out problems before going to sleep? Well I just need to hear something like "It's alright honey. We're not supposed to fight like this. We used to be fun and nice. Forget this stupid thing. I won't did it again. Just go to sleep now. Meet me in your dream honey. I love you. So much!". Then everything is fine! And I can sleep well too! ERGH Whatever! There isn't anything right for now. Everything's going wrong. Why I should struggle into this hard life? Well it's actually a gift. Life's a gift.

    VSO♥

    Posted by VSO ♥ at 7:59 AM | Labels: | 0 comments |

  12. Execution Day!

    Tuesday, May 24, 2011

    Hello readers! I'm suddenly disappeared for 4 days, I know. I did tell you that I'm having exam, didn't I? Well, exam started from 23rd until 30th May. 1 week full! And after that we're having the remedial exam for those who won't pass the first exam (seems like will be the one of them who won't pass :D). 3 days passed so I have 3 more days to face this stupid examination.FIUH! How about you guys?
    I realized that postings without pictures or images or photos are so YUCK! But don't blame me, blame my stupid camera's USB which has disappeared since a year ago! Oh, it's frustrating. Really need a memory plug-in. :( I have so many photos to share you. So bad I can't do it now. Hmm. I have no idea to typed any kind of topic to right. So enough for today.

    Have a great day!

    VSO♥

    Posted by VSO ♥ at 10:14 PM | Labels: , , | 0 comments |

  13. Stand Up For Love-Destiny's Child

    Saturday, May 21, 2011

    This song help me to think a little bit more smoothly.

    Stand Up For Love-Destiny's Child

    There are times I find it's hard to sleep at night
    We are living through such troubled times
    And every child that reaches out for someone to hold
    For one moment they become my own

    And how can I pretend that I don't know
    what's going on?
    When every second, and every minute another soul is gone?
    And I believe
    that in my life I will see
    an end to hopelessness,
    of giving up,
    of suffering
    CHORUS (first time)

    If we all stand together this one time
    Then no one will get left behind
    Stand up for life
    Stand up and hear me sing
    Stand Up for love.

    Im inspired and hopeful each and everyday
    thats how I know that things are gonna change.

    So how can I pretend that I don't know
    what's going on? When every second of every minute another soul is gone

    And I believe that in my life I will see
    An end to hopelessness,
    of giving up,
    of suffering

    [CHORUS]

    If we all stand together this one time
    Then no one will get left behind
    Stand up for life
    Stand up for love

    And it all starts right here
    And starts right now
    One person stands up and the rest will follow
    For all the forgotten, for all the unloved
    I'm gonna sing this song

    And I believe
    that in my life I will see
    an end to hopelessness,
    of giving up,
    of suffering

    [CHORUS ]

    If we all stand together this one time
    Then no one will get left behind
    Stand up for life
    Stand up and sing, yea!
    Stand up for love
    for love

    Posted by VSO ♥ at 8:49 AM | Labels: , | 0 comments |

  14. hey! :) I have no mood to type too much. I dunno what's happening. My mind, it's getting wrong or what. But I'm feeling totally bad. A real bad feeling.
    I don't really understand what's going on with me, her, and them. They're just making everything worst. Stop blaming each other. I realized it was just a misunderstanding. Then, some people make it really worst. After that they're just blame another people, again. What's wrong with you? Actually there's nothing wrong with us. It's YOU. Hm .. I can just forget those sh*t things, until I heard something really unforgivable thing. (still I call that people as THEY/THEM) They said that my boyfriend is just a bad guy or whatever. HELLO? I know who he is. I know much better than THEM. Please, what's actually on their mind? They think by saying like that I will no longer trust him(my boyfriend)? Sorry it won't work! It's none of your business actually. Come on, just take care on your own problem. You don't have to take care mine. You're just too "KIND(?)" you know?*I doubt that "KIND(?)" HAHA. 1 thing they should know "I know which one is right and which one is wrong. This is my life and please let me live my life as what I want or as what I think. If later I fall or suffer or anything, I won't come to ask your help or sympathy from you". Stop ruining my life. You should give it a rest. Don't you feel tired?Fiuh. Please let me live in peace. I don't want this kind of life. Full of hatred, misunderstanding, clutter and wtv. Just live in peace, can I?

    Posted by VSO ♥ at 8:25 AM | Labels: , , | 0 comments |

  15. Examination?

    Friday, May 20, 2011

    Hey guys. How are you doing? :) Well today's not much different from yesterday. But I've learnt to love every days I have. Hm. Problem, it hasn't end yet *sigh. Really wish everything could end up happily. I don't want any bad feelings that would always stay in our mind. Examination is coming, so please I don't want any useless thoughts disturbing my concentration *even I won't really study for it. HAHA.
    Well those examination is totally killing me. I can't imagine how I will do those 3 subjects. urgh. Just wish for some miracles, and friend's kindness. :D
    Umm. I don't have anything else to type today. Sorry :( I would share much tomorrow or later :D Promise !
    Good night

    VSO♥

    Posted by VSO ♥ at 5:19 AM | Labels: | 0 comments |

  16. Hola !

    Thursday, May 19, 2011

    Hola ! how's your day? Depressed? Sick? Happy? *common thing. Well I feel quite great today. I won't think too much anymore. I get a point. If they don't even respect me as friend, so what? And if they keep on talking bad things behind, so what? If they wanna end this friendships, so what? I tried to respect them(pretend that I call that people as *them), but at least I didn't get anything but bad reputation they brought. ergh. Stop talking about them.
    Okay, still discussing about 'friendships'. I love to have many friends. Being enemies is just so sick for me. Hate it the most. Make me tired. Don't you think this is annoying? Hmm. I still have so many friend instead. :p . Let me share something about my classmates. *girl classmates. I like them since the first time I entered that class (I have shared about this before, I think). But some problems make us not too close to each other. I realized that's because we don't know each other. You know, we can't judge people when we don't even know them. It's totally right! And still I like them, so much. I'm just too coward to move forward. Someone told me that I have to join them and have chats with them. I really want to. But I don't have any confident to do it. I'm .. honestly I'm afraid. Haha . But now I'm getting close to some of them. Not all, just some. That makes me really happy*sounds stupid, but I do. They're really kind,friendly, cute, pretty and awesome! Well I hope we can get closer and closer. Gotta tell you headway soon! :D

    VSO♥

    Posted by VSO ♥ at 7:30 AM | Labels: , , | 0 comments |

  17. Complicated

    Wednesday, May 18, 2011

    hello guys. How are you doing? Fine? I hope all of you are doing fine today. Hmm. So bad I'm not good today. Everything happened just out of my mind. Seems like everything is driving back to 2 years ago. The hardest time, when everybody pretended that I was nothing, no one talked to me, no friends sat next to me or had chats with me. I'm having feeling those things would happen, again.
    Well I don't understand why everybody keeps on blaming me. I tried to do my best for other people, but at least they said that I'm a destroyer, a vandal. Can you imagine you friends, your best friend say that you're a destroyer and also vandal? Well, I have never imagine but I feel it! It's damn hurt! :( They just see me like I'm an evil.
    I wonder why I never get any good story in my whole life? I used to be childish but I try to change it. Really need to stop crying in front of people. I really need some energy or power to do it. But I can't. It proves that I'm too weak. I would like to be strong. I act like I'm strong in front of everybody. But I can't deny, I'm totally weak.
    Sometimes, life is just too hard. To be honest, I'm coward. Life is never flat. When we're getting older, problems come without any single stops. Like : Life is just like the sea, storms everywhere. When you sail farer and farer to the center, bigger storms will hit you.
    Enough for complaining my life. How bad or worst it is, it's still my life, mine.
    Good Night Everyone .

    VSO♥

    Posted by VSO ♥ at 7:24 AM | Labels: , , | 0 comments |

  18. I'm Back !

    Monday, May 16, 2011

    I'm finally back, sitting in front of my computer, and typing sh*ts here. Miss me? HAHA. After leaving my blog for almost 4 months, I decide to keep update more often since today. *promise. Do you see something different in this blog? Ya, I changed many things last night. Do you like it? Well I hope yes.
    This 4 months gave me so much experience and stories that I can't type it all here. But overall, my stories lately is just.. complicated but it's great and unforgettable. Well a couple months ago, I moved to my new sweet home which is COOL and COMFORTABLE and LOVELY. I will share you some photos about it later, not now, why? because I lost my camera USB and I don't have any kind of things that could be used to read that camera memory. Actually that memory can be plugged in my Notebook. BUT ! another trouble is: my notebook is broken(damaged) which is ANNOYING. I can't online using my notebook anymore. Daddy doesn't allow to fix it. He said I will broke it again. urgh. :( I hate using computer (PC). But it's okay . Well back to my new house. I was having trouble *again* after moved here. Well I forgot about something. I didn't think about the internet connection before , I didn't put any internet line here ! So after moved here, I lived without internet for almost 1 months until at least I bought a MODEM to use. ThankGod. :) . Umm I love my bedroom. It's pretty cute. Actually I wanted a Classic-Bedroom. But dad asked the interior designer to make it Minimalist. At least, It's not bad at all.
    Hhm. I have 6 more days free before exam. FINAL EXAM ! I don't have any idea how I will pass my math, chemistry, and physics exam. :( uh. frustrated. So how about you guys? Hope we can pass this final exam and move forward to the last grade of senior high *in Indonesia* :)

    VSO♥

    Posted by VSO ♥ at 11:55 PM | Labels: , | 0 comments |

  19. DONE !

    Tuesday, January 18, 2011

    well I'm here again . stupid girl who keep on typing stupid things here .
    I can't think . anymore . I'm blank . I look like a crazy ppl now. really . I can't keep my anger now and see !! I'm a monster !. the most stupid monster ever !. who always hurt herself and now she's dying .
    I don't BELIEVE ! I will never could BELIEVE those facts ! ohh . I'm totally hurt ! . I HATE YOU I HATE HER I HATE HIM I HATE THEM . AND I HATE MYSELF THE MOST !!.
    maybe you will think that I'm really crazy now but I really need to pray " GOD TAKE ME ! I'M WEAK AND I CAN'T EVEN SOLVE MY OWN PROBLEMS . I QUIT ! I GIVE UP ! "
    everyone here is just evils !! YOU ALL ARE TOO CRUEL YOU KNOW ??. I DON'T KNOW THAT I'VE DONE ! what make you hate me ?. you don't know me so please don't judge me . do I look like a BITCH for you all ??. ohh !. my tears ! they have never come out for so long .. but recently they have to drop like rain !!. YOU'RE TOO CRUEL ! REALLY ! YOU ALL !

    Posted by VSO ♥ at 5:02 AM | Labels: | 0 comments |

  20. N.U.M.B

    Sunday, January 16, 2011

    my heart my brain my feeling , they're numb . I feel nothing . what I can do is just introspecting myself . am I really doing bad ?. I've never think he can did and said something like that to me . I can't . I can't believe it . I was shocked . really shock *sigh
    this morning . I woke up quite late . almost 10 a.m .. I'm afraid to face my own life . I'm coward . I know .. everyone asked me 'what's going on with you ?' 'what happened' . and I answered ' it was just a nightmare !' ' I have a really bad dream ' .. ya stupid answer . HAHA . wtv . I don't care ..
    I felt like I really don't wanna open any online stuffs after reading those tweets . why that have to be the way to make me jealous ?. tweeting another girl(s) I don't like . am I ego ?. but think !. if I do that thing to another boy . he must be so mad . but why he didn't think about this too ??.
    I'm not a patient , aggressive or perfect girl . I'm not as smart as them . I'm not as pretty as another girls he loved . I'm not as good as what he wants . and those are why I need him . need him to make me comfort . to make me feel that I'm perfect . but what I feel now is : I'm stupid . I'm not pretty at all . I'm bad , never be good enough for him .. I think so hard last night .. what I did ??. why he accused me on everything ? he pointed me . and he was so rude . argh . he made me afraid . huh . stop discussing about that .
    I decided to smile and laugh every time . WHY ? bcs I don't want anyone knows my stupid life . my misery life . if I act sad everyday , that must be so YUCK ! I laugh to hide everything . and it works . everyone says that my life is the most interesting life ever !. what ? HELLO ??. I'm happy to hear that one actually .
    honestly I need to share my stupid sad stories to him . share my sadness and anything else . but seems like . IMPOSSIBLE . he won't understand :'(

    enough for complaining my life . my powerlessness .
    GOOD NIGHT EVERYONE !

    Posted by VSO ♥ at 5:28 AM | Labels: | 0 comments |

  21. H.A.T.E !

    Saturday, January 15, 2011

    huh . I'm turning badmood now . after reading some shit stupid tweets !. huh . honesty I don't understand what's going on between me and him .. what does he want and others . everything makes me going crazy . I'm feeling bad now . well I have sooo many things that I can't explain to ANYone . I just found no way about how to explain . kinda stupid right ? yaa . I'm stupid . everyone is trying to make me stupid and crazy . lol . :'(
    okay pretend that I tell all things to him , to them . do they wanna understand it ?. come on . life's not as simple as what we imagine . I know .
    I never know that he could do something like this . to me . argh stop talking about that . my tears flow like tap water right now . I cant type anything else . keyboard is totally wet ,

    good night everyone .

    Posted by VSO ♥ at 6:15 AM | Labels: | 0 comments |

  22. now what ??

    Tuesday, January 11, 2011

    ya I'm here again . I'm bad today . I got fever , cold and etc . really need to sleep soon . but not before I share some things to you guys . maybe my body shows what my heart feels now . BAD .
    ohh . could anyone help me ?. I don't know what's wrong with me again ?. everyone treats me so bad including him *I feel it . well let me write out the point .. to everyone : don't trust me then If you think you can't trust me . I will no longer beg or force you to trust me . I feel like stupid keep on begging everyone to be kind on me . IF you wanna treat me bad , talk something bad about me , don't wanna trust me or what . just continue on doing that ones . I'm tired . really tired .
    I wonder , what would you do if seeing me dying ?. oh come on ! no one will cares about it *exclude my family . I think everyone really wanna watch the time when I will cut my veins , blood everywhere , pale face of mine , and then heart stop beating .. that's what you all want ?. someone ANSWER ME !

    good night everyone

    Posted by VSO ♥ at 4:39 AM | Labels: | 0 comments |

  23. dum dum ♥ ♥

    Saturday, January 8, 2011

    today is super duper guper mad day . everything happen today is out of mind . I'm tired about facing such hard problems . well forget about L.O.V.E for a while . haha !
    today my housemaid didn't come . and guess what ?. when I entered my room . it was just as same as when I left it ! used-tissues everywhere . my hair stuffs are all on the floor and table . and so on . you know what's worse ?? I have to tidy it up MYSELF . I look like a housemaid just now . HAHA .
    it's 10.30 PM now . feeling so sleepy but I bet I can't sleep later . :p . bcs of something . something . something . something !!!! oh stop talking about that or I won't sleep tonight . haha
    hm . I only eat 1times today . kinda joke right ?. I'm a food freak *thank GOD I'm slim until now :D . talking about 'eating' >> I'm not in mood . really . diet ?. maybe . hahha

    oh ya . just remember !. wanna share you this pic guys

    what do you think ?

    good night everyone :)

    -P

    Posted by VSO ♥ at 7:14 AM | 0 comments |

  24. HURT !

    Thursday, January 6, 2011

    unreliable .unfaithful .liar .bad temper .fierce and wtv . are those all things inside your mind about me ??? it's hurt . really hurt . these things are really driving me crazy . could you stop thinking something bad about me ?. oh . I'm out of words .
    I found no words to describe how much I miss you . how much I love you . how much I need you . exactly I'm the one who ego or you ? I must be ME !. ya I know .

    Posted by VSO ♥ at 12:53 AM | Labels: | 0 comments |