My World

I don't really understand what's going on with me, her, and them. They're just making everything worst. Stop blaming each other. I realized it was just a misunderstanding. Then, some people make it really worst. After that they're just blame another people, again. What's wrong with you? Actually there's nothing wrong with us. It's YOU. Hm .. I can just forget those sh*t things, until I heard something really unforgivable thing. (still I call that people as THEY/THEM) They said that my boyfriend is just a bad guy or whatever. HELLO? I know who he is. I know much better than THEM. Please, what's actually on their mind? They think by saying like that I will no longer trust him(my boyfriend)? Sorry it won't work! It's none of your business actually. Come on, just take care on your own problem. You don't have to take care mine. You're just too "KIND(?)" you know?*I doubt that "KIND(?)" HAHA. 1 thing they should know "I know which one is right and which one is wrong. This is my life and please let me live my life as what I want or as what I think. If later I fall or suffer or anything, I won't come to ask your help or sympathy from you". Stop ruining my life. You should give it a rest. Don't you feel tired?Fiuh. Please let me live in peace. I don't want this kind of life. Full of hatred, misunderstanding, clutter and wtv. Just live in peace, can I?

Well I don't understand why everybody keeps on blaming me. I tried to do my best for other people, but at least they said that I'm a destroyer, a vandal. Can you imagine you friends, your best friend say that you're a destroyer and also vandal? Well, I have never imagine but I feel it! It's damn hurt! :( They just see me like I'm an evil.

I wonder why I never get any good story in my whole life? I used to be childish but I try to change it. Really need to stop crying in front of people. I really need some energy or power to do it. But I can't. It proves that I'm too weak. I would like to be strong. I act like I'm strong in front of everybody. But I can't deny, I'm totally weak.

Sometimes, life is just too hard. To be honest, I'm coward. Life is never flat. When we're getting older, problems come without any single stops. Like : Life is just like the sea, storms everywhere. When you sail farer and farer to the center, bigger storms will hit you.

Enough for complaining my life. How bad or worst it is, it's still my life, mine.

Good Night Everyone .