I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have all of me You used to captivate me by your resonating light Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have all of me I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have all of me, me, me |
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My Immortal - EVANESCENCE
Sunday, July 10, 2011
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Flashbacks!
Thursday, June 30, 2011
HI ! I'm here again :) How's life?Umm. Suddenly I miss my cousins. They both are cute ones. Iwent to their place about 2 years ago the last time. Singapore would always be the best place to go. Cause wewon't need any tour guide, won't worry about the transportation fee and others cause my uncle would bring us to any place we want to go. :)What I miss the most is this!
We ate this BBQ+Steamboat at the Marina Bay. It was truly yummy! It costs $12 for adult *if I'm not mistaken. Hmm. The squid and meat and shrimp and whatever there were delicious. You should try them. :) I can get this kind of BBQ+steamboat at Medan too. SEOUL GARDEN of course! HAHA. But it costs a lot, about IDR 100,000++.
Well. I miss this moment :)
I forgot where this place is. How Stupid I am. HAHA. Feeling hungry ? :D
Where do you this is? Hmm. There's water. Beach? Ups. NO! This is at Vivo City. On the highest floor of this mall, you'll find this place. It looks like beach actually. But without sands. HAHA. Oya. There's me and my sister . HIHI :D Even I can't see my face at all, I love this picture so much :)Oh well, enough for today. See you ! :)♥VSO| Labels: life, others, photos | 0 comments |
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Empty
Tuesday, June 28, 2011
Holla! :) how are you doing guys?Today.. I don't have much thing to write down here. I used my free-time to have daydreaming. Thinking about my past stuffs, thinking about how happy I was, when I met him the first time at the class, the first time he looked at me, the first time he talked to me, the first smile he showed me, the first time we played a rubber, the first time he added my Facebook, MSN, and YM, the first time I sent a message to his Facebook, the first time we chatted on MSN, the first time heconfided his problem about his ex to me, the first time he sent me message to my number late at night, the first time he wrote 'ILU' on the chat, the moment when he asked me to be his girl, the first time he called me 'honey' and so much more. Those things made me feel so happy. I realize about how lucky I am of having such person like him. No one knows how happy I am. Well now I look like a little girl who just get a new Barbie doll. HAHA. Pathethic, I know.Hmm. I found this picture, I browsed it a few weeks ago from internet. It's adorable and cute.
What is that? Well it's an embryo as what you see. This embryo was just 20week when scanned. And he's a baby boy! Well maybe now he's about a year *I think. He gave his thumb-up sign, just like letting his mom(Marie Boswell) know that he was okay there inside the womb. He might be a cute and adorable baby boy of course. :) You can find the complete information here (just click it)Okay enough for today. See yyouuu!!♥ VSO| Labels: him, life, love, others, photos, thoughts | 0 comments |
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I'm so sorry!
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Gahh! Sorry for the absence. I got some problems and now I decide to update again and more. Well guys, you have to know that the reason I post my stuffs or problems or anything else here is because I need to share those things. I have no one to share all my shits. And I know no one can understand what I feel. All I can do is just talking to my computer monitor and chat to my loudspeaker (?) HAHA. Joking. One more, I realize that human is a social being. And I can't face all my life's stuffs alone. I just need to express my thoughts. That's all. :)Okay, we move into another topic. Yesterday, I went to beach with some special person. :) Yes I went there with 'him' and his family. :D Well I was so nervous actually. I did meet his parents before, some times. But still, I felt nervous. HAHA. And yesterday I met his sister for the first time. She's ........... Adorable :) Hmm. A great trip actually, BUT I didn't bring my sweetie camera. Mom brought it to Penang last week. Oh yea, mom went there about a week ago to have medical check up and she had thyroid surgery. Sound creepy. I miss her so much and maybe she will come back this Wednesday, wish she's okay. :) Well back to the beach! So bad I didn't take any photos. But they did bring the camera. They took a lot of picture (I think). And I was captured in some photos too. I don't think I looked good there. HAHA. I felt so shameful actually. :DHmm. On the way home, I found my panda(him, well I love to call him PANDA) slept along the way home. He looked cute, even when he fell asleep. HAHA. I saw his sleepy expression, and I realized he looked like a little boy. :D:D I really wanted to take pictures of him that time.Well, we're having holiday right now, until the next 2 weeks. Gonna miss him so much, because I can only meet him once a week every holiday. :( Now also, I'm missing him. But so bad, he's feeling mad to me right now. Pity me. Wish everything will be okay. I ♥ you Mr. PandaTime's up! I typed too much shits I think. HAHA. See youCiao!♥VSO| Labels: him, life, weekend | 0 comments |
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It's Friday !
Friday, June 3, 2011
Hi everyone! It's FRIDAY FRIDAY *the song of Rebecca Black(Friday) which is cute :). So how's your day guys?I came to school this morning to have my remedial test. And tomorrow would be the last day of school. Because I'm having holiday from the next day until 22nd of June when I have to take my report and SEE if I pass this grade. HAHA. Well thinking about holiday now is really great. But I would get bored after holiday. Everyone feel it too *I guest. :DUm .. I went to watch movie, Scream 4, last night. A great movie actually. But I'm just too coward to see the 'killing scenes'. Using kind of knife or whatever which is damn sharp, stabbing people one by one. Blood is everywhere, dying people, ahaa! It's damn scary. I know it was just a movie. Fake blood, fake dying people, fake knife and whatever. But it seems like watching them cutting a chicken or turkey or other kind of 'alive food'. Oh! Whatever. I'm a real stupid coward girl, I know *Shy. :D .And actually I prefer to watch kind of 'horror' movie where I can see the stupid ghosts flying and pulling human down the stairs *well now I remember the movie paranormal activity 2. HAHA. Ew. To be honest, watching horror movie is also make me scared . Every time, after finish watching kind of sadistic movie, when I walk out the theater, my feet is just like shaking softly and it's almost numb! Which means I DO really scared. HAHA . Um Well. Last night, is a great night. Super happy! :D:DOkay, I think I had type so much, so see you!VSO♥| Labels: daily, life | 0 comments |
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Quotes♥
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
I still find each day too short for all the thoughts I want to think, all the walks I want to take, all the books I want to read, and all the friends I want to see.
John Burroughs
I do not regret one moment of my life.
Lillie Langtry
Life is never easy for those who dream.
Robert James Waller
Wanna read more? You can click THIS. I love to read some quotes from here. :)Oh ya. Do you have any questions to ask me? You can formspring me, by clicking THIS. Feel free to ask :)VSO♥| Labels: life, others, quotes | 0 comments |
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안녕하세요 ! (an-niyong-ha-say-yo) -> Korean and it means HI ! :) Today is 1st June. New month new spirit new posting new changes(my blog view). HAHA. So what have you done today? It has to be something good to start,right? :)As you see, I changed my blog's view. I think simple is better. I get bored by using that template before. It's weird, I get bored so fast. I just changed that template about a couple weeks ago. Uh Whatever! So what do you think guys? Which one is better? Old or New one? I hope you like this new view. :) I don't know if you get bored to that old template too or not. HAHAHmm. I've done my Math's remedial test and I have 2 more subjects left, later, on Friday and Sunday. I wish I could pass it faster and of course I don't wanna get bad score for those. Wish me luck so I can pass this grade to the next final grade of high school. I have so many plans to do. Well actually I can't wait to buy(*shopping) my school's thingy. YES! :)) Actually I saw a Bag yesterday, at a sport store, which *I think* can be used as school bag. It's freaking awesome! That type of bag is actually exists since years ago. Because I saw it so often at stores. But, now! I just realized it's really awesome. HAHA. It's Adidas :)Alright. enough for today. 안녕 ! (an-niyong) -> means 'BYE' too . :)VSO♥
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Execution Day!
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Hello readers! I'm suddenly disappeared for 4 days, I know. I did tell you that I'm having exam, didn't I? Well, exam started from 23rd until 30th May. 1 week full! And after that we're having the remedial exam for those who won't pass the first exam (seems like will be the one of them who won't pass :D). 3 days passed so I have 3 more days to face this stupid examination.FIUH! How about you guys?I realized that postings without pictures or images or photos are so YUCK! But don't blame me, blame my stupid camera's USB which has disappeared since a year ago! Oh, it's frustrating. Really need a memory plug-in. :( I have so many photos to share you. So bad I can't do it now. Hmm. I have no idea to typed any kind of topic to right. So enough for today.Have a great day!VSO♥| Labels: daily, life, others | 0 comments |
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Peace?
Saturday, May 21, 2011
hey! :) I have no mood to type too much. I dunno what's happening. My mind, it's getting wrong or what. But I'm feeling totally bad. A real bad feeling.I don't really understand what's going on with me, her, and them. They're just making everything worst. Stop blaming each other. I realized it was just a misunderstanding. Then, some people make it really worst. After that they're just blame another people, again. What's wrong with you? Actually there's nothing wrong with us. It's YOU. Hm .. I can just forget those sh*t things, until I heard something really unforgivable thing. (still I call that people as THEY/THEM) They said that my boyfriend is just a bad guy or whatever. HELLO? I know who he is. I know much better than THEM. Please, what's actually on their mind? They think by saying like that I will no longer trust him(my boyfriend)? Sorry it won't work! It's none of your business actually. Come on, just take care on your own problem. You don't have to take care mine. You're just too "KIND(?)" you know?*I doubt that "KIND(?)" HAHA. 1 thing they should know "I know which one is right and which one is wrong. This is my life and please let me live my life as what I want or as what I think. If later I fall or suffer or anything, I won't come to ask your help or sympathy from you". Stop ruining my life. You should give it a rest. Don't you feel tired?Fiuh. Please let me live in peace. I don't want this kind of life. Full of hatred, misunderstanding, clutter and wtv. Just live in peace, can I?| Labels: daily, life, problems | 0 comments |
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Hola !
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Hola ! how's your day? Depressed? Sick? Happy? *common thing. Well I feel quite great today. I won't think too much anymore. I get a point. If they don't even respect me as friend, so what? And if they keep on talking bad things behind, so what? If they wanna end this friendships, so what? I tried to respect them(pretend that I call that people as *them), but at least I didn't get anything but bad reputation they brought. ergh. Stop talking about them.Okay, still discussing about 'friendships'. I love to have many friends. Being enemies is just so sick for me. Hate it the most. Make me tired. Don't you think this is annoying? Hmm. I still have so many friend instead. :p . Let me share something about my classmates. *girl classmates. I like them since the first time I entered that class (I have shared about this before, I think). But some problems make us not too close to each other. I realized that's because we don't know each other. You know, we can't judge people when we don't even know them. It's totally right! And still I like them, so much. I'm just too coward to move forward. Someone told me that I have to join them and have chats with them. I really want to. But I don't have any confident to do it. I'm .. honestly I'm afraid. Haha . But now I'm getting close to some of them. Not all, just some. That makes me really happy*sounds stupid, but I do. They're really kind,friendly, cute, pretty and awesome! Well I hope we can get closer and closer. Gotta tell you headway soon! :DVSO♥| Labels: daily, friendships, life | 0 comments |
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Complicated
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
hello guys. How are you doing? Fine? I hope all of you are doing fine today. Hmm. So bad I'm not good today. Everything happened just out of my mind. Seems like everything is driving back to 2 years ago. The hardest time, when everybody pretended that I was nothing, no one talked to me, no friends sat next to me or had chats with me. I'm having feeling those things would happen, again.Well I don't understand why everybody keeps on blaming me. I tried to do my best for other people, but at least they said that I'm a destroyer, a vandal. Can you imagine you friends, your best friend say that you're a destroyer and also vandal? Well, I have never imagine but I feel it! It's damn hurt! :( They just see me like I'm an evil.I wonder why I never get any good story in my whole life? I used to be childish but I try to change it. Really need to stop crying in front of people. I really need some energy or power to do it. But I can't. It proves that I'm too weak. I would like to be strong. I act like I'm strong in front of everybody. But I can't deny, I'm totally weak.Sometimes, life is just too hard. To be honest, I'm coward. Life is never flat. When we're getting older, problems come without any single stops. Like : Life is just like the sea, storms everywhere. When you sail farer and farer to the center, bigger storms will hit you.Enough for complaining my life. How bad or worst it is, it's still my life, mine.Good Night Everyone .VSO♥| Labels: daily, life, problems | 0 comments |
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I'm Back !
Monday, May 16, 2011
I'm finally back, sitting in front of my computer, and typing sh*ts here. Miss me? HAHA. After leaving my blog for almost 4 months, I decide to keep update more often since today. *promise. Do you see something different in this blog? Ya, I changed many things last night. Do you like it? Well I hope yes.This 4 months gave me so much experience and stories that I can't type it all here. But overall, my stories lately is just.. complicated but it's great and unforgettable. Well a couple months ago, I moved to my new sweet home which is COOL and COMFORTABLE and LOVELY. I will share you some photos about it later, not now, why? because I lost my camera USB and I don't have any kind of things that could be used to read that camera memory. Actually that memory can be plugged in my Notebook. BUT ! another trouble is: my notebook is broken(damaged) which is ANNOYING. I can't online using my notebook anymore. Daddy doesn't allow to fix it. He said I will broke it again. urgh. :( I hate using computer (PC). But it's okay . Well back to my new house. I was having trouble *again* after moved here. Well I forgot about something. I didn't think about the internet connection before , I didn't put any internet line here ! So after moved here, I lived without internet for almost 1 months until at least I bought a MODEM to use. ThankGod. :) . Umm I love my bedroom. It's pretty cute. Actually I wanted a Classic-Bedroom. But dad asked the interior designer to make it Minimalist. At least, It's not bad at all.Hhm. I have 6 more days free before exam. FINAL EXAM ! I don't have any idea how I will pass my math, chemistry, and physics exam. :( uh. frustrated. So how about you guys? Hope we can pass this final exam and move forward to the last grade of senior high *in Indonesia* :)VSO♥| Labels: daily, life | 0 comments |
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26 Nov 10
Friday, November 26, 2010
today , there was an exam , HISTORY! . I hate it . too many stories to read . :( . in fact , I didn't study and I did my exam quite good . HAHA . I just write anything I like . :D .
and yesterday , it was an annoying day . huhh . he didn't want to talk to me . I dunno what's wrong . then last night he told me that he was BAD MOOD . :-| . honestly , I felt like I was BURNT that time . how I hate it when every time he tells me that he is BAD MOOD and he doesn't talk OR smile OR sit next to me !. Grr !!. seems like he is not in mood to be close to me, right ?. :( . I learn something , I know how to handle this . BUT it's hard . really . so should I get used to his MOOD ?. ohh . it's a nightmare . if somehow he does it again , what should I do ?. keep smiling to him and try to talk to him first . it's really not me . I'm not kinda agressive girl or what either a romantic girl . I always want a boy to start everything first . not me . but ya , I should get used to him .I mean his MOOD . I love him . really . so I have to love everything he has . :)| Labels: daily, life, love | 0 comments |
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weekend's
Saturday, November 20, 2010
hie everyone !. today is a great Sunday . yesterday is my lovely friend SHELLY's birthday . she treated us to eat at SEOUL GARDEN as what we planned . yeah, it's delicious . I love the seafood and also the ice-cream . they're all yummy . :) . I'm quite late yesterday . my friends arrived there about 1 p.m and I just came there 2.45 p.m . haha . we ate so many things there . we sit almost 3 hours there !. keep eating what we like . and you know I ate so much . my friends can't eat to much , but I can . HAHA . at last , we try that 'KERANG REBUS' .*it means shell that we boiled along with water . pretty delicious that one . after we were full to be filled , we were about to going out from that place . but when we just almost walked to the door , all the waiters and waitresses shouted to us " THANKYOU SEEYOUAGAIN " . HAHA . it's so funny . hm . after that, we're just having fun at amazone . then of course go shopping . I bought 1 new hairband . it's perfect . BUT it's so expensive . :( . it's okay , I'll do anything to get what I really want . :D . last, I went to J.co and bought some baby donuts for my lovely mom . she likes that so much . and at the end of my shopping day , I found my wallet EMPTY !. no more money left inside it . HAHA !.
well I promised you all to add some weekend photos . ya , I remember it of course . :D . haha .
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SICK !
Thursday, November 18, 2010
well . I'm getting sick of these stuffs . I really need to be understood and trusted . that's all . I explained the same thing for thousand times . but it's really useless .! I know JEALOUS is a common thing. n I DO too .! when he played or talked with some girls*well I hate them , I felt like BURNT !. shit . but I tried really hard to understand it . I keep on thinking positively . and keep telling myself that he loves me . that's the reason I could always SMILE to him every time I was jealous . I feel proud of myself about that . :D and I always wish he could be like that too . :) .
.. oh . forget it . I'm facing such exams lately . and I got a bad score for mandarin . I hate it , you know . how can I memorize hundreds words written by stupid scratches*I dunno what it called . HAHA . and next week the worst subjects ever (maths , physics , chemistry ,etc) will haunt me !. well I wish I can get answers from some kind friends . HAHAHA !. these exams just make me stressed !. I HATE exams . :(
enough for today . see you next time . :)
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>.<'
Saturday, November 6, 2010
oh . I miss posting something stupey here .
it has been 4 months ! 4months !
haha :D . sorry
well . I passed my life just like before : a lil bit boring , much fun , lazy n wtv . what about you guys ? :D . oh ya !. now I'm a 2nd grade of sh's student !oh . it's driving me crazy . I hate to be older and older :( . yea let's change to another topic . I'll spend so much money lately !. 3 of my friends having their birthdays so close one to another . I have to save my money . MUCH !. haha .
today is 6th NOV 2010 , Saturday . I went out to have my dinner with my sistas . I ate pizza just now . quite great . it rained !. so I cant went out to another place(s) anymore . it's quiet cold this night . I love it .
it's time to go to my dreamland . my boyfriend is waiting for me there . haha
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