My World

I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have all of me You used to captivate me by your resonating light Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real There's just too much that time cannot erase When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have all of me I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears And I held your hand through all of these years But you still have all of me, me, me

Holla! :) how are you doing guys?

I love him . I'm feeling so afraid of losing him . every time he holds my hand and that would be the time when I'm being so selfish . I really need to freeze the time . I wanna hold his hand without let it off . yah I'm so selfish . I realize it . when he holds my hand , I keep worrying if he let his hand off . and I keep thinking so hard about how if he won't hold my hands anymore . how if that would be the last . that's what I afraid of .
I know he loved a girl . and honestly I admit that she is beautiful , charming . ya I know she's almost 'perfect' and I definitely NOT . but I never want to be as perfect as her . really . my friends said she and I look alike , long hair , quite tall , slim . oh . I hate it . I really want to have my hair cut you know . I just dont want my boyfriend thinks about her anymore .
and just now I heard that girl's name . one of HIS(my boyfriend) friend talked about her . asked for this girl's phone number . and HE didn't wanna give it . it makes me really worry . I thought about it along the way home . what I really afraid of .. I afraid . of losing him .

- P

today , there was an exam , HISTORY! . I hate it . too many stories to read . :( . in fact , I didn't study and I did my exam quite good . HAHA . I just write anything I like . :D .
and yesterday , it was an annoying day . huhh . he didn't want to talk to me . I dunno what's wrong . then last night he told me that he was BAD MOOD . :-| . honestly , I felt like I was BURNT that time . how I hate it when every time he tells me that he is BAD MOOD and he doesn't talk OR smile OR sit next to me !. Grr !!. seems like he is not in mood to be close to me, right ?. :( . I learn something , I know how to handle this . BUT it's hard . really . so should I get used to his MOOD ?. ohh . it's a nightmare . if somehow he does it again , what should I do ?. keep smiling to him and try to talk to him first . it's really not me . I'm not kinda agressive girl or what either a romantic girl . I always want a boy to start everything first . not me . but ya , I should get used to him .I mean his MOOD . I love him . really . so I have to love everything he has . :)

I dunno wat is this ..
but I'm feeling different lately
he's different to me ,,
he text me ! . , I'm soo excited ..
does he feel the same feeling like I do ? ><

Princess

I realize that I'm stupid !
the 1 tat ever hurt me ,, just wait for the revenge !
I dun wanna be kind if it's useless !
argh ,, I hate love !

my birthday just passed
n i got a TeddyBear from my friends .. :) damn happy
I named her BEBE .. ahahhaa

mm ,,,
but so sad , some1 I love didnt tell me hpy bday :(
1 of my friend said that he doesnt even know my bday ..
huhh .. I hate it ..
but lately he's different ..
a lil bit more talkactive to me ,*even always make me angry
he likes to mock me ,, *always n everyday
sometimes he makes me jealous !
my bestfrnd told me that he did it by purpose
n she(my Bstfrnd) said that maybe this boy(the 1 I ♥) is also loves me !!
I dont knoe if she's lie .. but she said she's sure !
welL , actually I hope so .... XD

I ♥ him .. zhu tou ! pig ! XD~

Princess

it has been so long for not updating this blog ..
today is 22nd of januari 2010 ,,,
it's too fast for me actually

weLL ,
lately .. I'm just feeling stupid
cz I can see someone "special" everyday now ..
ahaa ,, actually he's not really perfect but he's cute
a lil bit mysterious that make me feel curious .. XD

then ,,
about someone that I've ever love "last time"
he acted so different that time
how can he just say something 'bad' to me
TT
even it's too hurt ..
but I can forgive him ,,
forgive doesnt mean forget ,,
in fact , I hate him ,,

hmm ,, this is late now here in Indonesia
I'm gonna sleep cz I've to go to school tomorrow
wishing a great story foe tomorrow ,,ahahaha ,,

well gd nite ,, c u again

Princess

I stlll dont understand what 'LOVE' means ,,
too hard to know ,,
I cant guess what LOVE needs ,,
=="
so hard to find a true love ,,

WATEVER !!

I wont make today's topic as LOVE ,,
about LOVE ,, I'll think it tomorrow or next chance ,,

something I wanna share for today is ,,
I'm gonna have a SAINS OLIMPIADE at my school tomorrow ,,
I was chosen to join that competition by my teacher ,,
I'm so happy ,,
but I dont really confident about it ,,
I got some papers from my teacher just now ,,
some questions ,, really2 hard questions,, Xp
confused ,, GOD, bless me always ,,
teach me to be a climber ,, not a quitter ,,
Amen ,,

welL ,, it's time for me to sleep now ,,
gd nite XD~ ,,

Princess

why it should be like this ? .
I just realized that i do love u ,, but u just go away from my life so easy ,,
well ,, this is not the 1st time I taste the hurt of love ,,
or i wont find someone really I love in my life ?,
should i just give up n forget all the things about love ?,,
maybe it's the best thing to do ,, till I really find me 'prince'

Princess

so happy today .,
i joined a basketball competition just now n i'm going to the final next week .,
:) n someone special sit next to me ,., hhaha .,
so happy ., listen jokes from my friends .,
fun !! .,

i took some photos ., but maybe i'm going to upload it tomorrow .,
bcz it's going late n i'm gonna sleep early .,
tomorrow i will attend to school again ., the holidays had passed so fast .,

but the stories do not stop only till here .,
when i online my fb justnow ., i saw some new pictures of someone i love'as freind' ( but he had said tat he love me ) .,
about his vacation this weekend .,
he took some photos wit so many gals .,
n one of the gals was his girlfriend too .,
even i said tat i dont love him ., but why i feel so jealous??
i cant found the answer ., but maybe GOD n my own heart know it .,
huff ., okay .,
i'm getting sleepy ., better for me to sleep now .,
so gud nite ., :)

Princess