My World

I love him . I'm feeling so afraid of losing him . every time he holds my hand and that would be the time when I'm being so selfish . I really need to freeze the time . I wanna hold his hand without let it off . yah I'm so selfish . I realize it . when he holds my hand , I keep worrying if he let his hand off . and I keep thinking so hard about how if he won't hold my hands anymore . how if that would be the last . that's what I afraid of .
I know he loved a girl . and honestly I admit that she is beautiful , charming . ya I know she's almost 'perfect' and I definitely NOT . but I never want to be as perfect as her . really . my friends said she and I look alike , long hair , quite tall , slim . oh . I hate it . I really want to have my hair cut you know . I just dont want my boyfriend thinks about her anymore .
and just now I heard that girl's name . one of HIS(my boyfriend) friend talked about her . asked for this girl's phone number . and HE didn't wanna give it . it makes me really worry . I thought about it along the way home . what I really afraid of .. I afraid . of losing him .

- P