My World

I never could imagine this thing would happen. I couldn't find him anywhere. Anywhere! I search around and everywhere. He's not there. Well i really have to admit it's impossible for me to live alone. Without him. It's just impossible.
I chatted a guy last night. Oh my god he was suck! Such an arrogant and cold creature. I was just reading the texts, the chats, but every word he typed, every words i read, they stabbed me to the heart! Exactly to the heart. I just read, not heard directly. How could words broke me like this? Or maybe i was just too sensitive. Idk
I am so sick of this. This life. It's suck!! I need him. I don't know how things would become like this. He's like my encouragement. He's the one think about every morning once i open my eyes. The feeling i get, that he's mine, that he's there and always be there. Those feelings remind me how lucky i am for having him. He's the best thing God ever gave me after He gave me my family. He's a gift comes from God after i complained about my shitty life before he came. He lighten up everything. He gives me reason to smile every morning. But things change now. He's suddenly disappear. Please God please. Take him back next to me. Please

Have you ever feel of caring someone a lot or we could say it 'over-care' maybe? You care too much on someone. But they take it as an annoyance. Like we are too too toooo over-react. Let me ask you now. Is it bad? Or is it a wrong? Well okay, maybe you'll answer 'actually it's annoying'. I know it is. Sometimes it is annoying. But think positive please. We care because we're afraid of losing you. And why ppl can become over-protective *or what*? because you've done something wrong before. Girls, they would become an over-protective, because boys had done her wrong before, so she's trying her best to not to let it happen again, and transform into a very over over over in EVERYTHING!
I'm done with the blablablaa. Hahaha. I've been complaining about my life lately. Not good! Don't copy my bad habit!

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This has been 2 days. I have been like this since 2 days ago. Keep on day-dreaming, missing things, worrying feelings and praying that time will fly as fast as possible. I realized i have been living in dreams lately. I can't keep this emotional feeling. It just comes itself without control.
Waiting. This is too torturing. I hate waiting. But this time i'm sure going to wait. The problem is i afraid everything will just useless at the end. Okay i wish this time would work well. I wish it would worth it.
tonight. It's just as bad as yesterday. Distance is.. Torturing. Ya it's torturing. In this situation, the most torturing is, you don't know whether they miss you as much as you do, or not. We feel so tortured, how about them? Yes i am getting crazy and my mind is going.. BOOM!

Good night ❤

" time passes, but wound never heal "
I wish time was an eraser. Erasing things we don't want to remember as the time goes on. So life would be much better

Have you ever heard this quote "You don't always get what you want" ? Well I heard this quote thousand times already. And I do agree this is right. Everybody experienced it of course. I did too.

Hmm I believe everyone has a dream for their future. I have too. *finally* haha. But things don't go like I want them to be. Like they're going wrong way that I don't even recognize. I wish things went right. But no one could understand what I want. OKAY this is life. Then tell me should I learn things I don't like in a 'whatever' university for the next 4 years? Just spending money at the canteen and go shopping after the class finish? Oohh que sera sera what ever will be will be. The future's not ours to see. Que sera seraaa hahaha

Keep on being what you are and do things you want. Be thankful of everything you got. Nothing lasts forever. Accept REALITY

His Best Friend: What happened?

Boy: She’s just too much for me.

His Best Friend: What makes you say that? What did she do wrong?

Boy: Well, for one.. She only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good, always took forever to get dressed! So insecure..

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not think otherwise? I see..

Boy: Oh.. Well.. She’d often call me or text me asking where I am, who I’m with, telling me not to smoke, not to drink. She’s so clingy!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. I see..

Boy: But.. Uhh.. Well, she’d always cry when I say something slightly mean. She can’t handle anything. She’s a crybaby!

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her? I see..

Boy: I.. Well! You know, she’d get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She’s so annoying! I had to hide it from her so she wouldn’t bitch about it.

His Best Friend: So, you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She thought you were faithful, but you lied so she could find out later and hurt even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. I see..

Boy: Well, she..

His Best Friend: You broke up with her because she’s good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She’s broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?

Boy: I broke her heart.. Because I couldn’t see what was happening.. What happened to me?

His Best Friend: You lost the girl that loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn’t want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT’S what happened.