My World

I don't have chance to tell what I'm thinking of . that's the problem . he keep on thinking something bad about me . he really made me scared . his face his voice his gaze . well just pretend that I'm bad, everything is my fault , *if that could make him happy and always smiles . I'm trying so hard to be what he wants . but I can't . I know I'm not as perfect as those smart , pretty girls .
I'm feeling so bad every time I enter the class . everyone stares at me . and I know they're thinking something bad about me inside their heads . what did I do ??. could anyone tell me ?. I'm STRESSED ! really . and inside that class when he's close to his friends(especially girls) , seems like he's soooooo far from me .

I love him . I'm feeling so afraid of losing him . every time he holds my hand and that would be the time when I'm being so selfish . I really need to freeze the time . I wanna hold his hand without let it off . yah I'm so selfish . I realize it . when he holds my hand , I keep worrying if he let his hand off . and I keep thinking so hard about how if he won't hold my hands anymore . how if that would be the last . that's what I afraid of .
I know he loved a girl . and honestly I admit that she is beautiful , charming . ya I know she's almost 'perfect' and I definitely NOT . but I never want to be as perfect as her . really . my friends said she and I look alike , long hair , quite tall , slim . oh . I hate it . I really want to have my hair cut you know . I just dont want my boyfriend thinks about her anymore .
and just now I heard that girl's name . one of HIS(my boyfriend) friend talked about her . asked for this girl's phone number . and HE didn't wanna give it . it makes me really worry . I thought about it along the way home . what I really afraid of .. I afraid . of losing him .

- P

He is sensible and so incredible
And all my single friends are jealous
He says everything I need to hear and it's like
I couldn't ask for anything better
He opens up my door and I get into his car
And he says you look beautiful tonight
And I feel perfectly fine

But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
And it's 2am and I'm cursing your name
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you
Breakin' down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

He respects my space
And never makes me wait
And he calls exactly when he says he will
He's close to my mother
Talks business with my father
He's charming and endearing
And I'm comfortable

But I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
And it's 2am and I'm cursing your name
You're so in love that you act insane
And that's the way I loved you
Breakin' down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

He can't see the smile I'm faking
And my heart's not breaking
Cause I'm not feeling anything at all
And you were wild and crazy
Just so frustrating intoxicating
Complicated, got away by some mistake and now

I miss screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain
It's 2am and I'm cursing your name
I'm so in love that I acted insane
And that's the way I loved you
Breaking down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kinda rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you oh, oh

And that's the way I loved you oh, oh
Never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you