My World

I don't know why. But this life seems like treating me so cruel. I've never been relax even for a while. I realize all that I do is just complaining. I am tired for complaining too.
You know, that feeling when you really wish you could cry out loud, but you can't, it is torturing. I wish I could cry it out, I can't. Idk why, is it because I've been really hurt this time, or I'm numb. this is so painful, this heart.
Someone wish to escape from me, I let that people go. This is hurt, indeed. I am just too tired to hold that people, who keep on pushing me away. I am tired, and I don't wish for getting back together anymore. I tried to do my best, I put my pride away, I begged like beggar. But still, that people have never feel that I was good enough. I have never get any kind of respect. That people can only act rudely when angry, pulled me like a dog, saw me with killer eyes, pointed me with the finger. I knew at least, we would not be together, at the end. I kept on trying. But now I am kinda ready. I will go my own way from now on. I promise I won't look back anymore. Everyone's right, I can find someone better, i believe that people can too. There's no point being together without any respect, trust and loyalty. I will try to walk and look straight forward :)

Goodnight world,
Xoxo