My World

Hello readers! 
I am here again, typing asdfghjkl. How 's life? Good or bad? Better or worst? I hope you guys are going good <3 font="">

Today is 25th January 2015. Maybe it is so late to say, but it's better late than never, right? So HAPPY NEW YEAR! Ah life goes so fast. Everyday passes so fast like crazy lately. I am so frustrated! Why? Because as time goes fast, we get old faster too! I am afraid of getting old so fast. I just don't feel right that I'm going to reach 21st birthday soon. Hmm it's not so bad actually. Gonna be a grown up woman. I just can't believe it. I mean I was only a school girl few years ago, and in around 1 more year, college era is gonna end as well. Bye books!

Talking about school and college, reminds me of comparing those two. I personally feel college life is better than school life. But mostly, all my friends say they prefer school rather than college. Had a much fun and more friends and also having money without earning it, they say. I know everyone has their own opinions. And i have my different opinion. At school everything must be done straight to the rules, i don't like it. Lots of report and questions homework, i am done with it. Very crowded canteen during rest time, i hate it. Very heavy books everyday, i give up on it. There's a lot of reasons that i am so lazy to mention every each of it. And to be honest, i was so bored attending school. I did not really have one good friend to laugh and talk to at class. Just sat at the corner of the class, ate the foods i bought from canteen, watching my classmates joking with each other and laughed at the funny jokes, gossiped around and did silly funny things then laughed out loud etc. They must had a very nice school life, lucky.
At the college, i met my classmates whom i never recognized before. Not even one! But in only weeks, we are all very close to each other. Hang out, spending money on unimportant things, skip classes and go watch movie instead. I love how we interact everyday, and everyday has never been boring with them <3 font="" nbsp="">

Ups I have been typing long and realized I am almost late for date! Today is weekend and boyfriend is heading to my home to fetch! I haven't change to pretty outfits and this and that, in conclusion i am not ready yet! Gonna call it a day and see you soon readers!

Happy Weekend!

Oh hi! So here i am, start typing life grumbles, again, like usual. Okay just kidding. I am so sure you are bored reading all my complaints since the first time i blog. (ya if you do read)

Today is 25th of December 2014, so Merry Christmas everybody! Well actually right here in Indonesia, Christmas season is not really booming. No snow, no cold weather, no Christmas tree at city center. Not cool right? Fiuh. At least give us snow please? Oh ya, we get heavy rain today instead of snowing. Okay fine. And about Christmas decoration here in my beloved city, Medan, you wont see a single Christmas tree along the streets. Oh well maybe 1, or 2. I don't understand why but Christmas decoration is very eye-catching and pretty right? Why do our beloved governments refuse to spend a few rupiah decorating this lovely city with beautiful Christmas theme? It is only once a year, come on. At least it is better than letting the money being corrupted by irresponsible people right? Ckckck. The places we can feel Christmas celebration are at malls, restaurants, cafes etc. They are just like competing who got the biggest, coolest and merriest Christmas decors. Ahh so heart-melting all of them.

Alright enough about that. 

So i just checked the last time i posted my blabbers were 24th of March, 2013. It's been 1..2..3.. okay,1 year and 9 month! I can't believe i was away for that long time. But yes, I am still alive! And healthy! And older! I am now 20 years old. And as i am writing my age here, i remember the first time i blogged. It was 2009 and i was 15 years old little girl. Again, I can't believe it has been 5 years and i was only 15 years old when i start writing unimportant complaints and things here. Most of the posts are very or extremely unimportant and boring. I myself feel ashamed of them. Euw. Oh and if you are a new reader of my blog, you better don't read the old postings. Thank you.

Hmm it is 10.17pm and i am kind of sleepy already. So good tomorrow is holiday! I don't have to wake up early for work. yeahh. 
And yes i am a working lady right now. See, i have a lot of things to tell you about what happens this past few years right? But i am not gonna start blabbering now. Maybe tomorrow, or the day after tomorrow, or next week or next month. ehehehe i am a lazy creature i know. Alright i am gonna post when i feel i'd like to!

Good night readers!

xoxo, lazy blogger

Hello. It has been a while. I love to write and share things or thoughts. But i got some problems to do things i love though.
I guess i have ever wrote something about believing in fate and soulmate. I was thinking about that the whole time. And life does really teach us. The more we live this complicated life, the more we learn. And i think now i know the true answer of what i have been asking for. I do not believe that fate is real. I mean we are the one who choose, we are the one who live our own lives. It is all depends to us. Well i am not trying to teach you or force you to trust what i just said
though. I just wanna share my thoughts.
In conclusion, i do not believe in soulmate though. I swear i wont believe stupid words like "we are destined to be" anymore.

Good night, xx

Life is seriously complicated. I dont know. I am so broke. Some ppl just believe what they wanna believe. That is not a good thing.
Ah i dont know what to type. I just have never been happy. Never. Should we continue a relationship that bring more tears than smiles?

Goodnight

I don't know why. But this life seems like treating me so cruel. I've never been relax even for a while. I realize all that I do is just complaining. I am tired for complaining too.
You know, that feeling when you really wish you could cry out loud, but you can't, it is torturing. I wish I could cry it out, I can't. Idk why, is it because I've been really hurt this time, or I'm numb. this is so painful, this heart.
Someone wish to escape from me, I let that people go. This is hurt, indeed. I am just too tired to hold that people, who keep on pushing me away. I am tired, and I don't wish for getting back together anymore. I tried to do my best, I put my pride away, I begged like beggar. But still, that people have never feel that I was good enough. I have never get any kind of respect. That people can only act rudely when angry, pulled me like a dog, saw me with killer eyes, pointed me with the finger. I knew at least, we would not be together, at the end. I kept on trying. But now I am kinda ready. I will go my own way from now on. I promise I won't look back anymore. Everyone's right, I can find someone better, i believe that people can too. There's no point being together without any respect, trust and loyalty. I will try to walk and look straight forward :)

Goodnight world,
Xoxo

Now i have a question. Do you believe in fate? Do you think everything in our life has been fated? Is your soulmate has been fated? Do you believe that people could be meant to be or not meant to be?
Well i am getting crazy thinking of these. I never get what i want. Things never be as way i want it to be. I am such a failure. Everything i do just ends up useless. Am i not good enough for anyone? Am i really that bad? No one could accept me like the way i am. No one feels happy for having me. No one feels blessed because of having me.
Is it my fate to be fooled and being threw away like trash by everyone?
TELL ME IS IT MY FATE?????

That feeling of hearing the person you love 's voice. No matter how the situation is, whether that person is yours or not. I think the feeling is just undescribeable. Don't care how the situation is, don't care how a couple fight hard. When you secretly call s/he, and they answer but you just keep silent, focus on the voice, don't care how they respond, you'll have that kind of feeling like calming yourself down and, you smile. Sounds stupid. But yea it's truth!

Goodnightworld ❤